February 2012
80 posts
I have anxiety. I hate it.
Actually don’t know if I want to go out tonight because I’ve gained 5 pounds from being bloated. I hate being the size of Jupiter.
I can’t sleep again. My imagination gets ahead of me, rules my actions and feelings. I turn into a coward, surrounded by demons with sticks, poking me and laughing. Whilst I know they’re not real, how can I still feel the pain of their sharp weapons piercing my skin?
I need to understand that I will be alone for the rest of my life, that I need to be brave, be in control.
I keep...
I can't sleep
I’m awake contemplating things in my life. One makes me angry and upset every time I think about it. Such a fool. I hope one day I can find myself I. A good situation and happy with the company in my life.
I've been planning to diet for weeks now.
Just spoil it every week. Being fat is ruining my life but I love food too much to lose weight. Comparable to a drug addict.
